Signs, Synchronicity And The Sweetness Of A Song (Travelling With Leilani in My Heart)

I have recently returned from a month away, spending time with my husband who is working overseas. It was special to be together again and to have time to grieve our loss of Leilani, together.

In the weeks before I came away, I was seeing double, triple & quadruple digits constantly. For example, every time I looked at the time it was 11.44 or 2.22 or 5.55.  Even my luggage departing Perth weighed 33.3 kg’s! (I was bringing food and supplies for Neil- wasn’t all clothes and shoes!)

“Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it.” Roald Dahl

Once I arrived in Doha, Qatar, I was sharing these signs with Neil, while he looked at me in his usual way when he thinks I’m talking crazy- lol!

Pictured: View from our accommodation in Doha, looking out to the Persian Gulf.

Later that day, we headed to the nearby shopping centre to grab some food for dinner. We stepped outside and were only metres away from our apartment when a bus drove by- number 777.  I quickly pointed it out to Neil.

We continued to the shops, and it was only after we got home that I looked at the receipt. Our food had cost 111.11 Qatar Riyal! It was becoming difficult for Neil to ignore my ‘crazy talk’!!!

A few days later, we left for a holiday to Spain. Originally this trip had been planned for the 25th of June, the day after Leilani unexpectedly passed away. We had cancelled the trip to return to Australia and lay her to rest, but our Barcelona hotel had let us change the dates even though the rate we had booked was non refundable. (Thank you Hotel Regina!) It was very compassionate of them, and I had brought a framed photo of Leilani in my hand luggage, to share with the staff.

As we checked in at the hotel lobby, there was a song playing in the background. As I listened to the words sung sweetly by a gentle female voice,

 “…Got a feeling most would treasure – And a love so deep we cannot measure – Ain’t nobody – Loves me better – Makes me happy – Makes me feel this way – Ain’t nobody, loves me better than you…”

I held back tears. It felt in my heart like a message from Leilani and I couldn’t bring myself to pull her photo from my bag, as I knew it would result in me being a crying mess!

Pictured, left to right: QAR 111.11 receipt. Hotel Regina receipt $1,111.25. Leilani in Barcelona.

The clerk discussed the bill and handed the original receipt to Neil, processed back in June when we originally booked. I immediately noticed the amount printed, showing a conversion to: $1,111.25 AUD!

The following day I could not remember the song, although I knew I had heard it before, and was mad at myself for not writing it down.

On our way out, I asked at the front desk if they happened to know what the song was? I discovered a DJ creates a song list for them every month and that the same song would be playing, at the same time, each day. They gave our check in time as 4 PM.

2 days later, we were on the second day of a hop on/ off bus tour, with plans to return to the lobby in time for the song.

Suddenly, Neil noticed we were at an unanticipated stop right across from our hotel- so we jumped off about 3.25pm and got to the hotel ready to listen out. As we entered the song was playing- so had he not noticed we would have missed it!

Pictured, left to right: Regina Hotel spotted. Room 111. The beautiful spiral staircase of the hotel, which was built in 1917.

The song was ‘Ain’t Nobody (Loves Me Better)’ by Felix Jaehn, ft. Jasmine Thompson (the vocalist). You can listen to the song on you tube by clicking this link or read the lyrics here.

Earlier that morning, at the hotel breakfast, I overhead for the first time (apart from when our own was requested) a staff member asking for a couples room number. The man replied “one hundred and eleven, 111.” Triple digits again!  That night on our way up the hotels beautiful staircase to our room on level 5, we took a detour so I could grab a photo of room 111 for this blog. :)

It was in Spain I realised how many little strands of hope existed within me that Leilani was, somehow, still alive. That when I returned, she would be there to greet me, as she always had been when we had traveled in the past.  That there was something I could do to miraculously bring her back.

The grief within me was rising up and I noticed, not for the first time, the part of me that was bargaining with the universe.  To take away the beautiful signs, the holiday and give me Leilani back instead.

My rational acknowledgement that this was ludicrous only made me cry.  Refocusing on being present and in the moment, on my breath, helped to gently ease my grief.

Knowing our other cat Roger (Leilani’s brother) was having fun on his own holiday at my mums house (she had started affectionately referring to him as ‘Roger the lodger’) allowed us, gradually, to relax, move forward and carry Leilani’s warmth and sweetness in our hearts as we explored new places.

Pictured: Hop on/ off bus tour in Barcelona. With Neil at one of the stops, overlooking the coast.

After lots of sightseeing, and indulging in amazing food (like our first taste of Gazpacho – Spanish Cold Tomato Soup- which was sooo much better than we ever imagined!) we returned to Doha for one night, before getting back on a plane this time to Montreal, Canada.

Neil was attending a conference so that first day I headed out to explore, starting with a nearby street we had discovered after arriving the previous night.

I was drawn into a shoe store and within a minute of being in there, what song should start playing but that same version of ‘Aint Nobody (Loves Me Better)’.  Beautiful!  Intuitively I felt there were some shoes in the shop for Neil, but when he went later didn’t find any he liked.

Another day I took a day trip out to the Laurentian Mountains, about a 2 hour drive from Montreal.  It was beautiful to see this part of Canada- I recommend this tour if you are ever there!  (Or better yet stay a few nights at Mont Tremblant, giving time to zip-line down the mountain- a 3 hour adventure that looked like heaps of fun!)

Fast forward another week, we were back in Doha and had driven out to visit a new large shopping centre.  I popped into a shop and Neil said he would be in another.

After a quick look around, I headed out and walked into another store which looked like one Neil might be in, to find “Ain’t Nobody (Loves Me Better)” was playing!

The 3rd time, in 3 different countries in 3 weeks (well 22 days but close enough!), and it was not even a recently released song!  My heart smiled.

Pictured, left to right: Mt Tremblant, outside of Montreal. Neil’s new shoes- from Leilani!

Neil wasn’t in the shop so I went back out, and he soon appeared.  I said to him, you have to come into this shop, Leilani’s song is playing!

We went in together and as the song played he was drawn to some shoes… a grey pair with white shoelaces (is it a coincidence these were the same colours as Leilani’s fur?!)  After trying them on he bought them.  Leilani had helped Neil get his new shoes after all!

A few days later as I was preparing to head home, I was saying to Neil he would have to try and grab a photo of the 777 bus for me.

My flight out of Doha wasn’t until 2am, so Neil and I headed by foot to a local hotel for some food/ drinks.  On the way there, a bus headed towards us – it was the 777 (this was a different street to where I had originally seen it).  I grabbed my phone but it was too late, it had already sped past.

Pictured, left to right: The 777 bus. Doha city view.

Afterwards as we walked back to our apartment, on that same street, there just happened to be two 777 buses, one coming from each direction!  This time I was able to capture a picture!

Later, bags packed, Neil ordered an uber for us to the airport and we waited for it to arrive.  As we got in I couldn’t help but notice the time displayed on the cars dashboard: 11.11.

xx Carolyn

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The Echo Effect

At the spritely age of 8 years old, Echo is one of THE most powerful and wise healers I have ever met.  His ability to almost instantly open wide the hearts of everyone he meets is truly, a beautiful gift.

First there are those eyes.  Look at them!  Echo’s adorableness draws you in as soon as you even glance at him.

That’s exactly what happened the first time we met, a few months ago. 

Echo was sitting at the front of his condo silently staring at me.  It was impossible to resist saying hello.

A stray, Echo had contracted FIV (feline immunodeficiency virus- and means there’s a few extra things you need to know about his care) but this didn’t faze him at all, nor did the shelter environment.  His sweet eyes pleaded for a pat and some TLC, yet he simultaneously radiated immense gratitude for being back in the care of humans.

I opened his condo door and was immediately rewarded with cuddles and purrs from one friendly, handsome and present cat. 

I felt my heart open wide.  Love and gratitude poured in- Echo was sharing his heart so freely.  How lucky I was just to meet him!

Soon I discovered Echo had won over many more shelter staff and volunteers at Cat Haven.  Offering Reiki to various cats in the shed he resided in, I witnessed how others too could not resist his magnetic pull.  I saw how their hearts opened wide, how they softened and relaxed as they shared a brief moment in their busy days with him.  How precious!

Even cuter- once you opened that door Echo made it clear he did not want you to leave him.  He would firmly press his head against the closing condo door and swiftly extend his paw, preventing you from closing him in. This behaviour only brought more smiles. 

I also experienced a gentle, friendly nip to my hand.  All I did was imagine closing the door and the next split second as I moved to do so he took action to prevent me, followed the ‘head and paw movement’.  How could anyone say no to such a persuasive character!?

Echo- you have made a lasting impression!  You have SUCH a radiant glowing heart; you are so excited for life and for whom you will next meet.  Your enthusiasm is infectious and your open heart is so powerful that words simply can’t do it justice.

I know you must have a special job to do and that whoever adopts you will be amazed at the special and unique being you are and at the happiness you will bring to their life.

Thank you for sharing your sweetness, your joy, your softness and your love.  The world is a better place with you in it.

Echo has been in Foster care with an ear infection that has now resolved and is finally available for adoption.  FIV cats require special care.  Please contact Cat Haven (Western Australia) on 08 9442 3600 for details.  *** UPDATE: ECHO HAS BEEN ADOPTED! ***

xx Carolyn

Unexpected Messages Of Love

Today (13 July 2017) I had the most beautiful experience.

Leilani, my sweet cat who is now in spirit, has been continuing to let her powerful presence be known and it has me (and now my neighbours!) in awe.

Today my neighbour asked if I could pop over to babysit quickly while she dashed to the local shops for something urgent. (I haven’t babysat for her before!)

I’m not that familiar with kids (more cats!), but was assured I just needed to sit and relax and only attend to the 3 kids (aged 5 and 2) if one of them started screaming- LOL!

I sat on the couch and a few minutes passed.  Then the kids approached me with a box.

The box had 3 cat puzzles, they wanted to do them with me.

As I helped them understand how a puzzle works, I was trying not to tear up at the puzzles they had chosen.

My neighbour Bec arrived home soon after and I showed her the puzzle, trying to stop it but I couldn’t, tears came to my eyes.

Bec was visibly taken aback at the significance… she hadn’t known they even still had that puzzle, and hadn’t seen it for over 6 months, having no idea where they had even got it from!

Expressing she was amazed that they hadn’t been playing with anything, but within minutes of me getting there they somehow found and brought this puzzle over… Bec had goosebumps!

Later that afternoon there was a knock on the door.  It was Bec and she had her daughter in her arms, who handed me a bag- with one of the puzzles as a gift- the grey cat.

More tears!

Even more beautiful, Bec shared she believed in the presence of people after their death, but had not thought about this with animals until today.

xx Carolyn

PS: Have your animals sent you messages to let you know they are with you and at peace?  Please chime in below in the comments- I would love to hear from you!


Photo 1: A pic Bec sent me of the puzzle box, as I’ve been documenting the messages from Leilani that continue happening in unexpected and beautiful ways.
Photo 2: Text from Bec.
Photo 3: Leilani in her younger days- tail up!  (2002/2003 in our first home together).  Leilani was forever walking over to us with her tail up, as soon as she saw us, so cute!
Photo 4: Leilani and I would often hold our foreheads together.  Such a beautiful memory to have.
Photo 5: The completed puzzle.
Photo 6: Chilling with my girl :)

*** If you have an elderly animal, or have even lost one of your beloved animals, you may find some comfort within ‘LEILANI’S LEGACY’ – Found under the RESOURCES tab of this website. ***

The significance of Dakota Avenue to Animal Reiki Western Australia

Occasionally life surprises you with synchronicities. 

Often they are easily disregarded as ‘coincidence’, and are soon behind us- we may forget they even happened. 

Sometimes though, there are too many indications of fate and you can’t help but pay attention. 

This story is undoubtedly one or those instances.

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After offering Reiki to my mother and father in laws beautiful cat Xena (to help her arthritis) around Christmas 2010, and realising how much she enjoyed it, I was immediately inspired to google ‘Animal Reiki’.  I was amazed and excited to find Kathleen Prasad who I discovered attributed her work in the field of Animal Reiki to her beloved rescue dog Dakota, who had spent 16 years by Kathleen’s side.

I loved learning that Dakota, an Australian Shepherd mix, would sit at Kathleen’s feet each time she undertook her daily Reiki practice (meditation and contemplation practice) and helped her understand the ways in which animal’s sense, enjoy and draw upon the peaceful space created.  

As a result Kathleen then worked on transforming her life, from school teacher to a now world leader in the field of Animal Reiki, through her business Animal Reiki Source and later her non-profit (co-founded with Leah D’Ambrosio in 2008) Shelter Animal Reiki Association (SARA).  SARA is dedicated to the memory of Dakota and most recently SARA has commenced an annual celebration named ‘World Animal Reiki Day’ yearly on February 5- Dakota’s birthday.


In August 2013 I fulfilled a dream to travel to the United States to meet and train with Kathleen.  The training was held at the most beautiful animal hospice and sanctuary named BrightHaven founded by husband and wife Gail and Richard Pope who have dedicated over 22 years of their lives to this mission..  

I left with my heart filled to the brim with gratitude for the experience and for the level of love, care and compassion provided to the animals that were lucky enough to have found their way to BrightHaven , where Reiki forms part of every animal’s treatment protocol.  (Alongside veterinary care). 

My commitment to helping animals was more than cemented!  As my husband Neil and I waited at the airport for our flight back to Jakarta, Indonesia (where we were living in 2013 for his work) I found myself constantly holding back tears as I didn’t want to leave – I wished that Kathleen and BrightHaven were not so far away.  

Poor Neil it must have looked like he had done something wrong- when we had shared the most amazing trip of our lives!!

Rewind to earlier in 2013, when I received shocking news (over the phone in Jakarta) from an Australian doctor I had only seen once for some simple blood tests.  I was diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure at age 34. 

After completing comprehensive research on this condition (aided greatly by my studies in complimentary/ holistic medicine) and travelling back to Australia for further testing, my diagnosis was confirmed.  Before Neil and I had even started trying to have children, we found ourselves being told it was likely that donor eggs might be our only option. 

Still digesting this news, in May 2013 we travelled for the first time to Hawaii to celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary.  Enjoying the seclusion of Maui we were surprised to step out of a gift shop and practically straight into an old friend of ours, Eden. 

Eden and I had lost touch when I changed my email address around the same time Eden had lost her phone.  Eden was on her honeymoon and it was so great to reconnect with her and hubby Gianni over dinner at such a special time. 


After moving back to Perth (Western Australia) we sorted a catch up with Eden & Gianni, planned 2 months in advance due to our conflicting weekend schedules!  When we finally caught up, mid 2014, we had our property on the market and they had just moved from one home in Maylands to another. 

Eden & Gianni shared how much they liked Maylands as a suburb leading us to think ‘maybe we should look at Maylands’.  A suburb we had not even thought to consider!  The next day we found a property online that had just come onto the market in Maylands.  It was on Dakota Avenue.

The following weekend as we were driving to the ‘home open’, along Peninsula Road and minutes away from the house, I glanced at our satellite navigation and saw Kathleen Avenue.  How funny- both Kathleen and Dakota in the one suburb and only streets away from each other!!

The second I stepped through the front door I knew it was our new home.  The few things we were looking for were all there (including the perfect space for my home office) and we were sure we could complete most renovations within our budget.  The only problem was that we hadn’t yet sold our existing home!

We placed a strong ‘subject to sale’ offer which was accepted, aside from a 48hr clause being added.  (This clause, should the seller receive a subsequent cash offer, would mean that we would have 48 business hours to decide to go ahead with the purchase unconditional, i.e. we would have to get a second mortgage and cross our fingers that our own home sold quickly – something we were not keen to do).

After a few weeks, on a Friday afternoon we got the call.  The 48 hour clause had been activated and if we didn’t sell our home that weekend, we would be forced to make a difficult decision.  Given the ‘Dakota’ and ‘Kathleen’ signs and the serendipitous meetings with Eden & Gianni I was sure the house was meant to be ours!  And then there was one more promising sign.

During that week our real estate agent reported he had found himself fielding calls from a couple who lived ‘up North’ and had seen our home on the internet and loved it!  They had been looking for a while and advised they would send their family through the home open that weekend and one of them would try to fly down for it too.

That Saturday was a beautiful day and we had something like 22 lots of people through our property, including the relatives of the couple- who we were informed took lots of photos and had been very impressed!   Unfortunately the potential owner’s flight had been cancelled, so they were relying on their family to help them decide what to do. 

We didn’t need to worry as no sooner was the home open finished than our agent received a call from the couple and by the end of the weekend we had accepted an unconditional/ cash offer, allowing us to confirm our purchase of Dakota Ave- yay!

What made it even more special, was when we found out our new owners were working away due to one of them being in the WA Police Service.  Neil had previously been in the police for a number of years and this seemed a fitting ending to the story of how we ended up living on Dakota Avenue.

Most of all, I am so very grateful that the universe even thought to look out for me, that it was able to somewhat miraculously place me on this path.  In the midst of my health challenges I connected with my passion and my lifes work.  

Trusting this journey, one step at a time, also allowed me to tap into the infinite gratitude I have for my many blessings in life, providing great comfort on the many numerous times I became disheartened, depressed and anxious about the future.  

Having the courage and faith to pursue the road that opened before me has helped me to heal on such a deep level.  

I could NEVER have got there without the compassionate and loving teachings, guidance and support provided by the traditional Japanese system of Reiki and my beautiful teachers Kathleen Prasad and Frans Stiene of the International House of Reiki or the love and support of my husband Neil.  

Special mention goes to our two precious cats, Roger and Leilani who have travelled with us since they have been kittens, except for in 2013 when they lived with my mum Lesley (love you mum!) while we lived in Jakarta.  (This arrangement made due to the rabies risk in Indonesia and not wanting to put them through the experience of quarantine).

They have been our solace and wise teachers, bringing joy to our hearts for the past 15 years and we love them immensely. I am infinitely grateful to be able to support their health and wellbeing with integrative measures as they approach the later years of their lives.

Since then: 

In March 2014 I was blessed to have my request to share Animal Reiki as a volunteer at Cat Haven WA  (a cat shelter/ rescue organisation here in Perth) granted by CEO Roz Robinson.  I continue to volunteer weekly, sharing the gentle power of meditation with hundreds of shelter cats in need.

I am so grateful to every single one of the cats I have met along the way- they have taught me so much!  (Special mention to ‘Sir Binky’ and also ‘Scrappy’ and ‘Autumn’ who I will blog about in 2017).


In October 2015 I travelled to Sydney for the Australian Reiki Connection conference on the fantastic topic of The Future of Reiki.  There are so many misconceptions about what Reiki is and it is SO important- now more than ever– that those fears are allayed so that greater levels of peace can exist in this world.  Directing your energy towards your own healing first is the most powerful thing you can do and your efforts will flow out the longer you stay that path.  

In searching just now for the exact words of a particular quote that came to mind, I instead discovered Marc & Angel Chernoff’s website Hack Life and this great article 40 Quotes That Will Quiet Your Mind.  Numbers 3, 14, 19, 20, 21, 26, 30 and 40 are especially interesting.

In February 2016 I traveled again to the states (California & Florida) to complete further Animal Reiki teacher training with Kathleen and also a Reiki workshop with Frans (around his most recent book: The Inner Heart of Reiki Rediscovering Your True Self).  I brought with me a large framed picture of the image shown in this blog as a gift from my heart for Kathleen.  It took up almost half my suitcase with all the bubble wrap but made it there safely which was the main thing- though it took Kathleen a while to get to it- lol! 

After returning, I started teaching a class ‘5 Powerful Meditations To Help Heal Your Animals’ at Cat Haven, donating 25% of the course fee. (This donation element will continue to apply for all future Animal Reiki classes which will be held at various animal rescue and sanctuary organisations). Special discounts for taking the course are offered to shelter staff and volunteers in recognition of the selfless work they do everyday: caring for thousands of amazing animals each year.  Animals who, through no fault of their own, have discovered themselves without a loving home.

I also started the mobile Animal Reiki component of my business and have met some incredibly dedicated animal lovers through my work including a wonderful Veterinarian Michael Taylor, who is part of the amazing team at Your Pets Vet in Mount Lawley.  Michael volunteers every 2 years at an animal shelter in Rajasthan, India.

In July 2016 I finalised studies in Herbal Medicine and Nutritional Medicine (for people) at the Australian Institue for Holistic Medicine.  Wellness consultations will commence 1 April 2017.

Nerium International and Pause

Most recently, my business Pause has become a rep for a fantastic American company Nerium International, that offers 2 innovative plant and research based anti-aging products.  Nerium opened in Australia on 20 October 2016 and have a bright future ahead of them.  

I am excited to announce that 30% of the dollar income generated by Pause through Nerium will be set aside to create an animal based non profit to provide much needed support for an issue that is very dear to my heart.

Currently available in Australia via this unique Pause link are the Nerium Optimera Age Defying Day Cream & Age Defying Night Cream. Sold with a 30 day money back guarantee.  

These 2 fantastic products are dermatologist tested, suited to ALL skin types, ALL ages and the same product applies for men/women.  These products contain:

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I now feel ready to invite children into the life my husband Neil and I have worked so hard for.  I believe 2017 is going to be a very special year.

I would also like to acknowledge these 5 amazing people in the hope that these additional resources might help you on your journey.
1. Marie Forleo – an American “Multi-passionate Entrepreneur.” Marie says on her about page  “For as long as I can remember, I’ve been insatiably curious about human potential.  I wanted to know, what exactly is it that makes people genuinely happy, successsful and creatively fulfilled?”  I have learnt SO MUCH  from Marie’s You Tube Channel “Marie TV- THE place to be to create a business and a life you love”  and I know you will love it too!  Most of all- I LOVE Marie’s mantra: “The World Needs That Special Gift That Only YOU Have”.  Thank you Marie!!

2. Lissa Rankin – an American ‘physician, speaker, founder of the Whole Health Medicine Institute and mystic’ who I discovered online just before I moved to Jakarta .  Lissa’s books including Mind Over Medicine. Scientific Proof That You Can Heal Yourself are supported by dedicated research, for example peer reviewed medical literature, including the New England Journal of Medicine and the Journal of The American Medical Association, and are invaluable resources.
Shola Richards – an American corporate trainer and incurable optimist. If you have ever experienced bullying and particularly workplace bullying, his blog The Positivity Solution is a great place to start.  Shola has also recently released his first book Making Work Work.  I so love this beautiful African Proverb Shola references: “If you want to go fast, go alone.  If you want to go far, go together.”  Shola’s book trailer video which you can view here (it is just over 2 minutes long) is especially powerful – I look forward to reading his book!
3.  My brave friend Heather Jean, a spiritual teacher of sacred feminine wisdom who is passionate to reawaken and remind women of the power we have within, to bring new ways of living through the heart in peace, love and joy. Heather has also created a fantastic range of programs for sensitive children available through her website The Magic of You.
4.  Last but definitely not least, Kristie Dean. Kristie is an amazing friend and inspirational Leukaemia survivor who has a powerful message for this world.  Kristie has been medication free and in FULL remission for the past 10 years, following 5 years of drug treatment AND has the evidence to prove it.  Her book “I am Now. Listen. Act. Survive.” will be released in 2017. You can stay up to date with Kristie’s adventures via her Facebook page.

BRAND NEW: The 2017 Animal Reiki Perth educational program will be released SOON!!  Join the PAUSE MAILING LIST to stay up to date and to receive your FREE copy of the heart based e-book from Pause: TOP FIVE THINGS YOUR ANIMAL FRIENDS WANT YOU TO KNOW

Xx Carolyn

Photo credit: Marlies Loescher– of Animal Soul Photography

Lessons From Sir Binky Poodle Clip (THE CAT!)

Ok, so I’m not sure who named this handsome white pawed tabby fellow, but I do know that I was drawn to sit & share Reiki meditation with him in early August at Cat Haven WA.  (A cat shelter here in Western Australia).

Sir Binky was sitting huddled in the back corner of his condo, his bedding scrunched up so that only the front of his body benefited from its softness and warmth.  His eyes were questioning.  Wary.  Not happy.

I checked his information sheet and discovered that this sweet 2-year-old kitty had travelled to Perth from Broome- over 2,200 kilometres to find his forever home.  What a journey he must have had.

I said hello, let him know I was there to offer Reiki and gently offered him my hand to sniff, as a greeting gesture.  His eyes softened and he stood so I could pat him, but he was also unsure and his posture was not one of a confident cat.

I straightened his bedding and as he was clearly feeling a little more relaxed I brought over his food bowl and he ate some biscuits while I stood with him, my calm presence helping to confirm he was safe.

I closed the door to his condo leaving him be, sat just outside and entered meditation, dedicating my practice to Sir Binky.  After a few minutes, it came to me that this beautiful boy was desperately trying to make sense of his past experiences.  He was struggling to do so and this was troubling him.

I silently acknowledged that he had clearly already been through so much for his young age, that humans often do not make any sense and this is no reflection on him, as he was always doing his best.  Then I let that insight go and returned to my breath, to my connection to my centre.  To my meditation.

Sitting with Sir Binky this way, expecting nothing of him in return and perhaps offering him a different and more peaceful frame of reference for his future encounters with humans through Reiki is such a beautiful honour.

15 minutes later I opened my eyes to find Sir Binky sitting peacefully with his eyes closed.  I thanked him for his time and let him know I was going to sit with some other kitties in the same shed.

After finishing with the other cats, I returned to check on Sir Binky.  In this time others had been in and out of the shed, doors had banged open and shut and I could see Sir Binky was again feeling on edge.

Knowing that he was open to Reiki, I again sat outside his condo and Sir Binky responded almost immediately by softly closing his eyes.  I entered meditation and after another 10 or so minutes opened my eyes to find him having a huge drink of water.  He then sat peacefully and cleaned himself.

When he was finished, I opened the door to give Sir Binky a pat goodbye, and he rubbed all over my hand and arm, then using pressure leveraged himself to lay on his side; playful, happy and relaxed.  This moment was so beautiful.

Sir Binky had completely let go and was living in and enjoying the present moment.  I smiled and thanked him for sharing this precious side of himself with me, and yet almost instantaneously he realised what he was doing and quickly sat back up again with a look of surprise in his eyes.

Sir Binky appeared shocked that he had let his guard down and let me see who he really was- he had let me see his joyful heart!

It was almost as if Sir Binky suddenly thought, ‘oops, if I let my guard down like this, I might get hurt again like last time, what was I doing?!.’  Or possibly he even wondered on a deep level ‘is it really safe for me to be so free and happy, given my past? Is it really safe for me to shine my beautiful light?’

Is this not what we all do, to differing degrees?  Don’t we all wish to let go of our troubles and fears, to exist peacefully from our heart; to not worry that others will try to hurt (or direct anger and judgement at) us if we do shine our beautiful lights?

What a wise teacher Sir Binky is.

In form, Sir Binky may be a cat of only 2 years old.  Yet interestingly he had already learned to allow these types of considerations to limit him.  Who else would he have learnt these subliminal messages and ‘rules for existence’ from, than the humans he had previously come into contact with?

How interesting too that the most gentle, radiant and carefree part of Sir Binky, the sweet, soulful shining of his heart, was the part that he was most afraid to share with the world.  Yet the moment that he chose to do so, was also the moment that he felt immensely joyful, peaceful and free.

No wonder Sir Binky was struggling to make sense of our crazy human ways and fears- they are completely counter productive and nonsensical!!

The following week I returned to discover Sir Binky had been adopted, however just a few short weeks later he was returned for not settling in quickly enough.   Clearly it was not the right home for such a special and adorable kitty!  Sir Binky has since been placed in foster care, while he awaits the forever home that he has travelled so far to find.  Whoever his new person may be, I know they will be so lucky to have him and that he will be a caring and loyal companion.  Sir Binky: it was a privilege to meet you.

If you are interested in Sir Binky, please contact Cat Haven on (08) 9442 3600 to find out more.

Xx Carolyn